The Heart Of Life
Thurs. March 4th 2010 Omaha, Neb. Qwest Center John Mayer Concert
The headline is an experience I will most definately never forget. My blog is a result from this amazing concert. Like when a freshman girl walks the halls and gawks at the senior guys, is exactly the way I see John Mayer. Creepy I know. His unbelievable talent inspires me, his intellectual cleverness is beyond me, and his ability to speak his mind is something I envy while most others despise. As a result of not having the latter of John’s qualities is the reason for my writing.
Major transformations happen each second of the day around the world. This is evident by simply pushing the power button on your remote. While some are swift, I have experienced a major transformation in my life over the course of a year. This last year can be described by many things and/or words. Although it has been up and down, and most definately major, I believe it is the first of many to come that will partake to shape my views on life. Thank you JM :) (Yes, this is the part where everyone grumbles and proceeds to click the red X in the top right corner of the webpage, as they say to themselves “this kid is going crazy, he’ll enter the real world soon.”) maybe so, in that case would it not just be another lesson adding to the transformation?…yet another reason to blog, and to keep reading ;)
As a passion of mine slowly faded, an interest that I have always had, exploded. Some long conversations in my head late at night have helped my conscience ease this one through, with the will of God. For His sake is why we are here, duh. As just about anyone knows, a passion means a strong desire/enthusiasm for something. That is just what I once had and decided to pursue. When something you put your heart to does not work out for whatever reason, the feeling is nowhere near mutual at first. No one can be completely ready to just give up on something they have a passion for. I still don’t know if the point of letting go has overcome yet, but it sure is making strides. As I lay in bed it seems easier to think so each night. On the other hand this interest of mine is definately being taken to another level, although I’m not so sure it’s entering the route of pursuit yet.
This interest is in design. I believe I have a keen eye for detail, value, and diversity. Some specifics within design that I like are architecture, art, photography, fashion, visual design, graphic design…things like this get me flowing. Music has become a love of mine, while listening to it is truly a hobby. All these types of expression flow together for me right now, and I am choosing to let them come out. I wish I would have had the desire to play music much earlier, but right now all I want to do is learn how to play the guitar. That is an expression I want to add to my list. These are not things my family wants me to do, these are not the things my advisors tell me to do, these are not things my friends do. This is my expression. This is me wanting to be me. Because I believe it is essential to be yourself to have a fulfilling life. To be me the action of expression is needed and with that comes my interests…my real ones, not the ones I pretend because I once had. How this will help I do not know, but I do know the heart of life is good.”\ Transformations just lean in us in a new direction while trying not to tip us over…
